The day I saw you

Once again I'm writing a new post. So today,after a lot many of days I got a new topic to share, a new phase of my life, the untold part "The day I saw you......I waved a goodbye".
   I am a very socially selective kind of person , sometimes extrovert may be. Everyday, I woke up,and tried to find reasons to live , every night I slept , I tried to find reasons not to die. Every moment , I tried to find reasons to hope, dream, and love moments, but I never found them"Until I met you".
                       I saw chaos, confusion and fear all around me.But not within me,after I met him.
With time everything changes.Our time cycle decides our fate,our journey.Things changes ,sometimes to worse and sometimes for better and sometimes for the best,until you happened to me.
It is not  a story or may be it's not love.It's something more real than stories and more stronger than love,It's about him.
I was never stable at my place,I used to wander.I loved interacting with different people of different mind setup,learn new stuffs,explore everything possible and share different kind of feelings I had in my compact bottle of emotions.I was never happy with someone until I found him.When I found him,I found a deep ocean to dive into,explore you more ,know you the best possible way ever,more than anyone else.
I'm a normal girl,having eyes full of dreams and heart full of hopes and in search of a particular star in this huge galaxy.Like any other teenager, my eyeballs got stuck and my heart escaped a beat and I started listening to the songs on a loop.In a few days I got in contact and the interactions day by day increased and resulted into an "Ionic Bond" formation.Everyday, I started getting dressed up well,spent hours infront of mirror trying various hair styles and facial expressions and prayed to get a glance of him and tried to find out various excuses to spend time around him.Sometimes may be along with him even.As I got to see him,a idiotic smile used to take place without any notice and cheeks used to get reddish more and more until I shifted my eyes from him which we usually refer as "Blushing".Basically life got a reason to smile,to hope,to wish,to dream with.
          Yes,I stepped into another step of Adulthood,where there is a lot of stress we face in our days,and where Oxitocin (hormone secreted) plays a great role in pair bonding as well as Cortisol "also called stress hormone" plays a huge role with "crush".They generally act as neurotransmitters and sends signals between neurons which drives the levels-up.
Ever wonder why you get that ‘I-need-you-know-we-are-meant-to-be-together-I-can’t- sleep-I-love-you-so-much’ feeling? Ever think you’re going crazy? That’s because having a crush can fit the profile of  (temporary) mental illness.

It was not only a feeling of attraction towards him,rather a highly complex phenomenon going on.It was highly irrational,involuntary explosion of chemicals in the brain that can result into all kind of physical symptom such as faster hear beat rate etc.The brain chemistry of "Crush" can be like Obsessive-compulsive -disorder.As soon as the person is around you,you get  feeling such as no-one else is around you or you are in the no-where land.When you get to forget the answer of the question asked in exam paper,you never forget the incidents or situations that happened with your crush.We generally refer such phenomenon as "Love".

Being a kid of 17 years,I too faced these situations due to over-production of hormones and chemicals or at-least  hormonal imbalance and felt a Adrenaline rush and extremely uncontrollable  nervousness or/and excitement.These are generally a very basic and natural phenomenon we all face at some point of our life.

Like every good thing can't remain forever,he too came in my life for a limited period of time and due to release of "OXYTOCIN" sudden attachment resulted but with time "good time" had to end and finally I had to wave him a good bye forever from my life with words still left untold.I wish I could walk straight to him oneday.